Day 3: Diet Coke: now I can eat anything!

So I added the app MyDiet on Facebook and it says on a normal day I would eat roughly 3300 calories. Just being alive I would waste 2500 calories. I would gain 800 calories a day but how oh how did I remain in the 190-195 rage for so long? I think on some days I actually didn't gorge. Perhaps I waste more calories than I thought. I was an athlete in high school, well not really. I sucked at track and field. Perhaps it could be the muscles that I might have gained from track and field that burns more than 2500 calories. I never believed I was big boneded, I knew I was normal boneded. Boneded is not even a word, like how some people say they are light skineded. I get it now, ummm, no I don't. I am dark skineded. :p

It is only Day 2 of my liquid diet and it isn't even a full 2 days. I wasn't a baked potato from Wendy's with a 5 piece spicy chicken nuggets, 99 cents each. I want all you can eat crawish, popcorn shrimp, mashed potatoes, various pies, and salad (if I have room) for $9.99 at the SouthPoint Garden Buffet. I want 2 taco supremes from Taco Bell with a side of nacho sauce and a 32 oz diet cola.

Speaking of diet coke, this clip is so true:


This is exactly how I feel when I drink diet coke. I mean who am I kidding when i go anywhere and buy what ever I want and when they ask me what I want to drink, i say "Diet Coke., " Like it really maters. These days, and by these days I mean the past 30 days, I have been ordering regular coke. I might as well be honest with myself. Diet foods and drinks only make you feel like you can eat anything, as if you deserve it. I didn't cure cancer, or AIDS, I don't deserve that cookie because I ordered a diet cola!

I remember when I was in danger of getting with Type 2 diabetes. My doctor said that I can make small changes in my life so that I could reverse my situation. He looked at my A1C and asked me if I drank (I was at a part college). I said no. Then he asked me if I could replace my soda with diet. And I said I drink nothing but diet soda. He couldn't figure it out. I use diet soda as an excuse to eat what ever I want. I mean how many calories are there in a glass of regular coke? It is like 100 calories. Did that justify the medium pizza I just ate in the last 10 minutes? i don't think so! Suffice to say, I did get Type 2 diabetes at the age of 25.

I was so young. Ans it didn't get any better. Every year my A1C got higher and higher. At one point I was on Metformin and had trouble breathing at night. I was a hefty 210, I had rolls that I had never seen before and I had stretch marks on my stomach as if I had a baby. People used to come up to me and ask if I was pregnant! 4 different people held my belly and asked me when I was due. I know that they did not mean to be rude, but that was a wake up call. I got on Medifast and lost 2 dress sizes. I felt good, but now I enter 2011 at 195 lbs, according to Gold's gym. At least I am not 210. I kept 15lbs off. Phew!

Now I am in this challenge to lose a great deal of weight in 12 weeks. They took pictures of me, but not the ones I want. The real damage comes from the side. I used to wear a corset to keep an hour glass figure, but it has deformed my body to protrude forward. I mean I look good form the front, and I have a butt that is awesome, but don't sneak up to me from the side! I took a picture of such disgust:

Here are my stats for today:

Weight before: 188.4

Weight after: 187

Body fat loss: ?

Total weight loss: 8